My inspiration

My main inspirations/ inspirational people are:

• My Fiancé,
• My cat, Dolunay
• Demi Lovato @ddlovato
• Charlotte Letitia Crosby #bestgeordieever
• My Grandad ❤

“Live, Laugh, Love”

“Beauty isn’t measured in numbers, its measured in smiles”

“Laughing is healthier than starving”

“Stars can’t shine without a little darkness”

“Just be yourself, theres no one better”

“Stay Strong”

I’m struggling to see the light

Whoever chooses to click this post.. You are the first to see me admit; I’m struggling.

I’ve gotten to a point, where nothing helps me anymore. Meal times are back to being a nightmare for me, Nightimes are pitch black, silently crying myself to sleep. Dragging myself out of bed in the mornings, slapping a smile and forcing a positive mind. Theres the saying “fall down seven times, get back up 8”.. But what if you’ve been knocked down so much you haven’t the strength to get yourself back up? Its like you’ll take days or months to build yourself back up.. But seconds for you to be knocked down. You get to a point where you can’t even be bothered anymore. Theres only two main (positive) things in my life that I am still breathing for; My cat and my Fiancé. But now, even with them in my life, i’m struggling to find the strength to breathe on.

My reality

So this is a short post i’m bravely going to share the reality of my life right now.

So i’ll start by saying what i’m grateful for; My parents, my whole family, my cat (who btw is my world and yes I do consider her as my ‘baby girl’), my second family (possibly to be my in-laws) and of course My Fiancé. Without these people in my life I wouldn’t be here right now.

So I guess I had a rough start to life and it may have gotten more rough and wrecked.. possibly because of myself. I will write another post with full details of course, but right now i’ll tell you about the present.

Now let me tell you out of everything, the nights are my worst times. Sometimes I really do wonder if I’ll make it through to the mornings. My way of life right now is to take it day by day, hour by hour, minutes by minutes. Me and plans for the future to me aren’t visible at all. No one really knows what’ll happen tomorrow. Some have an idea.. but me, I see nout. I wake up in the mornings, I talk to my fiancé, and I have a shower or bath depending how bad my night was, and then I start the day. Every day is the same routine; shower, get dressed, dry my hair, do my make up, straighten my hair and do my bed. You’d think that’s what everyone does.. but let me tell you a couple of years ago.. I wouldn’t even get out of bed, so this routine is a good one! So then it proceeds, to a cup of tea, coffee and a snack, talking to the fiancé every break, then in the evenings is spending time with just him or him and his family. This is one of the best times of my day and probably the only thing I look forward to and can see happening every day. After a couple of hours I return home, take my sleeping pills and eventually after a cry or angry phase or something I fall asleep. You’d think “oh wow relaxed”, “lazy”, “aren’t you bored”. Its not like that at all, I struggle to get through the day and night, Yes I need to find something to do, but im battling so much in my head I don’t know where im going. So yeah.. that’s all i’m saying for now. Believe me, my reality isn’t easy, and no i’m not being lazy and being honest.. you don’t want what I have (except maybe the fiancé who sticks by me and puts up with all sorts of shit, or the cute cat who actually likes to hunt humans) x

Helllo

Hello world,

Welcome to my blog of wisdom and business ads.

So I’m 20 years old, I’ve joined Younique, and Arbonne. Both of these companies are online make up and offer a large range of products that I can sell to you over the internet.

Younique for me is mainly make up products whereas Arbonne is a range of cosmetics, hair, general and weight loss products. Both of these companies provide trusted, animal cruelty free products. And yes I use a range of both companies products so I do know what i’m talking about 🙂

Anyways the links are as follows:

http://www.youniqueproducts.com/yazzimayr

&&

http://www.arbonne.com/pws/yazzirandle/tabs/home.aspx

Please take a look and contact me if you’re interested. Lots of love,

Yazzi xx