Hello those who see this, / to myself. So I haven’t posted for a while and rarely do, but I will be making a return soon with many fun posts. I just wanted to say that since Christmas I haven’t felt myself, I’ve had many bad days, but there is and has been one thing that keeps me going, and that is ‘love’. My fiancé is that, he shows me all sorts of love, and loves me like no one else ever has. The things he does, the simple smile he has, the guilty laughter when he does something naughty. It warms my heart, if it wasn’t for him, I wouldn’t be here. if it wasn’t for him, his family and my family I wouldn’t of chosen recovery. if it wasn’t for them all I would be dead.
Recovery isn’t a time limited process, it takes as long as it feels best to become recovered. Yes I’m still at a stable weight and eating, but the thoughts and the habits have all kicked in. But something, which I put down to my family, fiancé and love keeps me going. I honestly appreciate all they and he does for me. He’s literally my heroin. The side of me wanting to recover is influenced by the love he shows and gives me. My fiancé, his family and my family are wonderful inspirational people. I hold on for them all.
As I said, I will be back soon, i’m seeing my psychiatrist soon, and I will be honest with him, I don’t know when I’ll feel alright again, but having everyones support is bigger than relapsing.
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